Saturday, November 6, 2010

more physical changes

Before I started on my journey there we're many things I was able to do.  I'm proud to say that I am now able to suck in my stomach!!  I was never able to that before.  I know is seems small and trivial but through weight loss and exercise I have regained control of my stomach muscles  - the last time I had control of those was before I got pregnant in 4/07.   I can't believe the changes that have come through me since this started. 

I have started to feel good about myself inside and out.  previous to this I would pull my hair up in a scruncii and that would be okay with me.  I through my makeup away many years ago.  I have since purchased some makeup and had my hair cut so that I can put time into myself because I am important.  I'm beautiful inside why not enhance my outer beauty. 

I have this scripture running through my head all the time:

1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (Niv)

19 Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies. 

This scripture continues to push me and help me respect the body that for so long I have abused. 

I feel that God has done so much for me and been there for me when I needed him.  I feel that this weight loss and journey to health isn't just for me.  I feel I am loosing the weight because I have him by my side and I'm doing this in his time.    I also feel this journey will be able to reach others and bless them as they learn how to be healthy. 

I couldn't have imagined the amount of change in me pphysically, mentally, or emotionally.  I am surprised about the amount of knowledge I have gained and will continue to gain.  I'm learning to cook and cook healthy.  In the beginning the emotional change was hard.  Feeling worthy of this journey was difficult.  I now know that I am worthy and deserving of this.  I hope I never have downs like that again but I will try to be ready for it in case it does happen again.   I love the changes and growth that are happening to me and I will welcome them with open arms. 


  1. carolyn you dont need make up to make you look beautiful on the out side you have always been beautiful on the out side and your inerside is even more so. you have more strength in your heart and sole than me and anybody i know. i love you so very much and always will. love m

  2. Carolyn. This touched me. How beautifully you shared your heart. Continued blessings on you friend.