During my downs I still have the urge to eat. To help satisfy myself emotionally. Going through "things" today I reached out for some fries. I had about 6 fries. My husband pulled them away from me so I wouldn't sabotage myself. During these times now I don't want to eat. I feel if I eat I will not meet my own expectations.
Needless to say I have alot of work still on the inside. I need to figure out a way to help me deal with problems like this in a more constructive way. I thought maybe I would write or blog to get through those feelings. See how that goes and if it doesn't help, I'll try something different. At one point I exercised but I exercised really hard way beyond the breaking point.
With ending of bad eating habits there are needs to find better habits for eating and dealing with life's downs.
I feel as though I'm going through spiritual warfare because I'm making positive changes in my life - all of your prayers are welcomed in helping me fight this.