Since my journey one of my worst fears came true. I didn't loose what I wanted to loose. To me it what a little devastating and I punished myself for it. I went straight to the gym. Took out my aggression on my body. I used to eat alot of food to take out my aggression that way. I'm glad my way of thinking changed as far as the food goes. I talked to Fawn and she put me back on track. This is a way of living and I will try my best not to punish myself anymore. I don't want being strict and regimented with food and exercise to become my "drug of choice." I want this to be normal balanced part of my life. I'm ashamed to say I punished myself at the gym.
I'm trying to remember that I put this weight on slowly and it will come off slowly. When I'm working out I'm burning fat and building muscle. Muscle weighs more than fat so I won't always come out weighing less every week. That muscle I'm building is helping to establish a better metabolism.
Starting weight 338
Last week weight 288
This week weight 287.5
This week weight loss .5 lb
Total weight loss 50.5 lbs
Off to another week of changing me.